Overall Favorite Books of 2016
15.
WHEN BREATH BECOMES AIR
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All life is lived in the shadow of its own
finitude, of which we are always aware — an awareness we systematically blunt
through the daily distraction of living. But when this finitude is made acutely
imminent, one suddenly collides with awareness so acute that it leaves no
choice but to fill the shadow with as much light as a human being can generate
— the sort of inner illumination we call meaning: the meaning of life.
That tumultuous turning point is what
neurosurgeon Paul Kalanithi chronicles in When
Breath Becomes Air (public
library), also among the year’s best
science books — his piercing memoir of being
diagnosed with terminal cancer at the peak of a career bursting with potential
and a life exploding with aliveness. Partway between Montaigne and Oliver
Sacks, Kalanithi weaves together philosophical
reflections on his personal journey with stories of his patients to illuminate
the only thing we have in common — our mortality — and how it spurs all of us,
in ways both minute and monumental, to pursue a life of meaning.
What emerges is an uncommonly insightful,
sincere, and sobering revelation of how much our sense of self is tied up with
our sense of potential and possibility — the selves we would like to become,
those we work tirelessly toward becoming. Who are we, then, and what remains of
“us” when that possibility is suddenly snipped?
generation after surgeon Sherwin
Nuland’s foundational
text on confronting the meaning of life while dying, Kalanithi sets out to answer these questions and their
myriad fractal implications. He writes:

And then the unthinkable happens. He recounts
one of the first incidents in which his former identity and his future fate
collided with jarring violence:

A security guard approached. “Sir, you can’t
lie down here.”
“I’m sorry,” I said, gasping out the words.
“Bad … back … spasms.”
“You still can’t lie down here.”
[…]
I
pulled myself up and hobbled to the platform.
Like the book itself, the anecdote speaks to
something larger and far more powerful than the particular story — in this
case, our cultural attitude toward what we consider the failings of our bodies:
pain and, in the ultimate extreme, death. We try to dictate the terms on which
these perceived failings may occur; to make them conform to wished-for
realities; to subvert them by will and witless denial. All this we do because,
at bottom, we deem them impermissible — in ourselves and in each other.
BRAIN PICKINGS
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